Lately, I’ve really been struck by the way a lot of people plan everything. Some people just have that planner-mentality ingrained in them (take one of those generic personality tests online and find out if you have it – you should plan on doing it soon, because it might really help you organize the rest of your life). I am not one of those people – meeting deadlines is hard enough. I absolutely hate when people ask me what I want to do with my life. Ok, I get it, I’m a junior and I should read the emails from Career Services about internship opportunities, but I don’t know what I want to do for the rest of my life. There are so many different things that I could see myself doing, and I don’t want to try and “figure out” where I’ll be four years from now. Because while I’m a junior, I’m a junior. I have ideas in my head, but I’ve come to understand that plans rarely work out the way you expect. Half the time, things fall apart as soon as they seem to be in place.
I’m aware that many of you may interpret this as a pessimistic attitude. Au contraire, I think it’s actually realistic. I’m not about to work myself up about the fact that I’m not sure what career direction I want to take (maybe a freelance writer, maybe a journalist, maybe a teacher, maybe a UD admissions counselor) because I’m genuinely open-minded about what’s out there. I’m not going to pigeonhole myself into one category. Sure, I know that I will absolutely not be a mathematician because A) I don’t even know what they do and B) I’m horrible at math, but that’s only one closed door. There are an infinite number of other doors open, and I’ll check them out one by one. Just as a warning, there are downsides to my mentality – namely, being horrible with money.
So for all you OCD planner-minded people, I admire your drive, but I also encourage you to sit back and relax a little. It’s not a crime to “not know.” We were told to “Know Thyself,” not “Know Thy Life Plans.” I hate to be cliché, but sometimes it’s just too good: “Let go, and let God.”